“Why don't you just use the rest room, walk up the stairs, and leave, like everybody else? Bring your extra pillow, make yourself comfortable; reservations close at five o'clock.”
I am
saying he might have, and so now we are in the realm of philosophy!
The
empty picnic table, the well worn but unoccupied trails, the rocks
beside the staircase, are decoration to most. "This is not a park"; this is another rest-stop on a drive across a state. Use
of these amenities is, socially, implicitly forbidden. The
disappointment of the one who sees the picnic table occupied by a
single human form: “We don't actually want to stop here at the
table, though you are preventing our possible use, and so you must
go.”
The
single human form is anathema to most, in a circumstance such as this
one. “Truth begins with two,” Nietzsche wrote. Leaving aside that
“I am legion,” I am carrying Baudrillard's book; I am not
alone though I am a single (“embookened”) human form. The single
human form: the image of the crazed serial killer. The book (and not
this book only):
subversion incarnate.
What
sights, sounds, scents, coruscations of touch would this brave
gentleman have foregone, to have been able to speak of a single human
form reading a book in a somewhat natural setting, this way? In his
mind, who knows what catastrophe he averted by making clear that he
was unhappy at the prospect of sharing oxygen and vicinity with a
“strange” human form? Fear; pacification of existence. One removes the other, and the other the one.
I got
up and left; we two were not slated to be friends. What catastrophe I
have averted in my imagination! I did not get into a conflict with
another human being. I know that single human form better than he; surviving attempted murder was never anything I'd planned
on, and it was that
single human form I did not heed, that made the five scars in my body
(“defensive wounds.”) It is that single human form that, as far
as I know, as far as I can know, is still haunting entrances to
parks.
Look
at what has just happened: objective ambiguity. Marcuse, in
One-Dimensional Man,
gave a few examples of this. Assessing from two points of view neutralizes all objections. Yet this is still an irrational rationality. What do any of you dialectical thinkers
have to say?
I do
not believe in “neutral” or “indifferent” worlds. Once
something exists, it has an essential orientation, even if it exists
only as possibility or impossibility. The pencil does not balance on
its point. It was not intended to; that is not the design intent of a
pencil. Perhaps some skilled pencil-balancer is out there; then, it
would be that single human form's essential orientation, and so on.
There is no zero-point, all is flux; or, zero is never reached
without being left, once more, immediately or nearly so. The world is
not digital, though this picnic table is a simulation.
I
came back, circling around, to the picnic table, and returned to
where I began, knowing it for the first time. And I've left out of
fear of – the police and the madhouse!
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